Wow... that movie was actually... amazing.
Not a spoiler, so no worries about any of that... besides... I hate it when people do it for me. Not gonna be doing the same to others.
For the first time in... who knows how long... I enjoyed a movie. I enjoyed that it was an original idea/story for a movie even more. It really was simply amazing. I didn't catch the first 5 minutes of it unfortunately, but my friend that I went with saw it before, and just told me... the aliens arrived, were taken from their spaceship and put into a shanty town. So yeah... stuff everyone knows anyways. I'm not picky with movies usually... but with the things that have been coming out... just... want to hurt myself... but what a great fresh breath of air this was. Started off documentary like sort of film but progressed to less of someone watching/filming to what actually happened to the storys "hero" in the way you'd see more of the GOOD action/sci-fi genere films out there. I honestly cannot find a single thing to say bad about it. But yeah. Go see it if you can. I liked it so much, I'd go see it again.
Anywho... today was my first day of being off work. I got to lay down, relax some and just enjoy life. I got nothing done, spent some money, got complimented twice on my T-shirt that I'm wearing for the first time ever (pink shirt with maroon lettering: Meat is Murder (and underneath) Tastey, tastey murder) and I got to eat at Arby's. God I love that place... got my jamocha fix and I'm a happy little camper. ^_^ So yeah, hope I can get more good days like the same of today.
I know I need em.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Prepare for a wall of text.
So yeah, I haven't kept up with anything of this sort in forever... mostly cause I'm not terribly happy with my so called life. Mostly cause I'm lazy. Mostly cause I'd rather be putting down something worth while instead of just how I feel is my pointless day to day life. Some things have happened... some not so great, some even worse... but all in all, I think its safe to say that my life is in a constant downfall and near impossible to get momentum enough to get working on climbing back up what will be a uphill struggle.
Some fun things to mention... I was speeding in my car to help Steve get a stolen item back... was fun... and interesting... was certainly a crazy rush.
Getting my gaming habit outta my system. Started this web site called Goozex. Peer 2 Peer game trading system thats inexpensive and works for me, all very afordable. ummm free passes to 6 flags the other day... was lots of fun. Batman Batman ride was the best. It was actually called the batwing, but I dubbed it Batman Batman ride for no good reason. Has to have at least 2 Batmans for it to be official... but more Batmans are just as good. Had a full length conversation of just "Batman Batman" over and ever again with the peoples I went with. Made me laugh. Actualy that day made me laugh alot. Good times.
Though, Biggest things to happen to me lately... well are pretty bad in my eyes.
My best friend from high school killed herself early june. Struggles with her long time boyfriend, as I understand it, finally became too much for the both of them, and they broke up. I'm not sure what else was happening in her life, sadly, but apparently it wasn't the only thing that misfortune gave to her. However, it was the straw that broke the proverbial camels back. Aurellia took her own life by ODing on sleeping pills to be found alone and no longer in pain the next morning.
The "funeral" was nice however. Aurellia's mom held a decent sized... for lack of a better term... Farewell party at their house. Alot of familiar faces came out to see it. Seth, Bobby, Jessie, Charis, Scott, Tomas, Miranda, Kristen (biggest shock there seeing shes been missing off the face of the earth since the end of high school) and the regular hometown crew were all there. We ate food, talked, enjoyed ourselves as much as we could and cried alot, including myself... which I never thought I'd hurt so much after a lost one again after dad... but I bawled like a baby on a number of occasions, but we had each other and I wasn't alone, so things were ok.
Seeing everyone together again was good and even brought out something better.
Funny how my family works and how my friends work in a similar fashsion.
My dad dies, my family realizes how much we don't spend with each other. How little we made outselves available for family. It opened our eyes. We agreed to make each other a priority and spend as much time as possible with one another because we care.
Sure enough, the death of our closest friend brought out the same feelings. We dont talk much. We dont hang out enough. We dont do nearly as much as what we could for each other.
Now this is changing.
Holly is taking charge in being super organizer for all of us slackers. She is making sure everyone is in the "in crowd" and knows what the others (if the so choose to say) are doing. We even have our own monthly gatherings just like the family did. Its yet to really take off. 1st month was sorta... her funeral... 2nd month was just a simple bbq at my place. Was alot of fun actually, but nothing really exciting and mostly just us talking. Was really all we needed, so it was good. We've got ideas and events coming up for the next coming months too, so should get better and more interesting.
Also on the up and up... while I've been waiting to attempt to be able to figure out how my life is going to change and figuring out more about me and my chronic stupidity that is my body, I've taken up work again... at least partially.
Working for mom is always... interesting. Decent pay, pretty much get my own hours... Life is managable. Problem is... I hate work. haha... Call me lazy... call me whatever you want. I'm it. I know I am. But I'm working regardless. Many a times through pain and stupid crap of a headache others leave for me. I agreed to help mom out with fixing her FLOORS. I've finished the FLOORS in one of her appartment and somehow... this was a free invitation to do 50 other things that my mother didnt even ask me to do. Its been the other siblings who say... you know, we should do this. And of couse by "we" they mean, I should do that. I'm getting quite pissy and tired of what they have in mind for me. I've done what I've said I would, the FLOORS(!!!!!!!) I'm not a cabinet fixer/painter/patio decorator/handyman for every frickin little job you think you see... and its funny... cause I'm the lazy one in my family. I've got no motivation to do jack shit. You have to tell me 100 times before it gets through my head to get started on something, and even then, I need to be babysat to continue to work on what I need to. Thats how they see me... and makes me pretty sick to my stomach. makes me want to hurt some of my family and tell them off in a big way. Whats worse is they give me the list of things to do... but when I'm busy with something else and they call me "Hey, wondering if your free to do work on the appartment" guess what happens... N-O-T-H-I-N-G-! Apparently I'm lazy... yet they cant do crap on their own when they have the time... I want to hurt someone... very... very... VERY badly.
*breaths*
I finished the floors with Steve like I said I would. Tile. no fun... lemme tell ya. Felt like it would never end. So after I'm done with those floors... here is Bryan telling me about this other place he is fixing up for his work... and its more tile. Fun... But, it is money. Today was my first day over there... and I worked friggin hard. I got 2 nasty no fun blisters, hurt neck, sore back, cramping legs... annnnnnd I agreed to help him tomorrow... Why? Cause I'm a glutton for pain... and money I desperately need. Spent all of the money I made with mom on fixing my car. 900 bucks... all down the tube... and I'm broke again. This wasn't how it was suposed to be really... but yeah... gotta put some money away for various reasons... most of which are of the Brittany related categories. I'm ok with that... So I'm working through pain and crappy feelings for a girl I cant see or talk to... what of it? -_-;
It should be all good. I've got ideas for 2 other part time jobs ontop of what work mom and Bryan give me. Part time work that is SUPER flexable. I'm pretty much a shoe in at one of those jobs. Being a working camera man for a local business/studio. Actually looks like it could be alot of fun. The other idea for part timer would also (I immagine) be quite available as a substitute teacher around the county.
Downside of everything... I'm not sure if I can do all that work and keep my healthcare benifits. I'm being paid without reports from mom and Bryan. Those 2 I've got nicely and dont have to tell anyone... the other 2 will be a different story. I'm really not even sure what to make of it. I've been healthy for about 9 months now, and feeling great. But I'm also going to the hospital next week for stent changes. Just annoying how everything works that way. bleh. SO! I'm gonna have a talk with some people on the inside very very soon... being my mom. hah. Nice to have people you can talk to for this sorta thing who can actually help!
So anyways... other than that, the only thing thats worth much of mentioning is that, yes, Brittany and I are still together. sorta... if you can call it that... ><><)
She is my soulmate and best friend and I love her.
IF it was ment to be... September is going to be the best month of my life. If not... at least I'll know that I can move on and try to be confusing and conflicting with someone else... haha.
So time will tell.
Some fun things to mention... I was speeding in my car to help Steve get a stolen item back... was fun... and interesting... was certainly a crazy rush.
Getting my gaming habit outta my system. Started this web site called Goozex. Peer 2 Peer game trading system thats inexpensive and works for me, all very afordable. ummm free passes to 6 flags the other day... was lots of fun. Batman Batman ride was the best. It was actually called the batwing, but I dubbed it Batman Batman ride for no good reason. Has to have at least 2 Batmans for it to be official... but more Batmans are just as good. Had a full length conversation of just "Batman Batman" over and ever again with the peoples I went with. Made me laugh. Actualy that day made me laugh alot. Good times.
Though, Biggest things to happen to me lately... well are pretty bad in my eyes.
My best friend from high school killed herself early june. Struggles with her long time boyfriend, as I understand it, finally became too much for the both of them, and they broke up. I'm not sure what else was happening in her life, sadly, but apparently it wasn't the only thing that misfortune gave to her. However, it was the straw that broke the proverbial camels back. Aurellia took her own life by ODing on sleeping pills to be found alone and no longer in pain the next morning.
The "funeral" was nice however. Aurellia's mom held a decent sized... for lack of a better term... Farewell party at their house. Alot of familiar faces came out to see it. Seth, Bobby, Jessie, Charis, Scott, Tomas, Miranda, Kristen (biggest shock there seeing shes been missing off the face of the earth since the end of high school) and the regular hometown crew were all there. We ate food, talked, enjoyed ourselves as much as we could and cried alot, including myself... which I never thought I'd hurt so much after a lost one again after dad... but I bawled like a baby on a number of occasions, but we had each other and I wasn't alone, so things were ok.
Seeing everyone together again was good and even brought out something better.
Funny how my family works and how my friends work in a similar fashsion.
My dad dies, my family realizes how much we don't spend with each other. How little we made outselves available for family. It opened our eyes. We agreed to make each other a priority and spend as much time as possible with one another because we care.
Sure enough, the death of our closest friend brought out the same feelings. We dont talk much. We dont hang out enough. We dont do nearly as much as what we could for each other.
Now this is changing.
Holly is taking charge in being super organizer for all of us slackers. She is making sure everyone is in the "in crowd" and knows what the others (if the so choose to say) are doing. We even have our own monthly gatherings just like the family did. Its yet to really take off. 1st month was sorta... her funeral... 2nd month was just a simple bbq at my place. Was alot of fun actually, but nothing really exciting and mostly just us talking. Was really all we needed, so it was good. We've got ideas and events coming up for the next coming months too, so should get better and more interesting.
Also on the up and up... while I've been waiting to attempt to be able to figure out how my life is going to change and figuring out more about me and my chronic stupidity that is my body, I've taken up work again... at least partially.
Working for mom is always... interesting. Decent pay, pretty much get my own hours... Life is managable. Problem is... I hate work. haha... Call me lazy... call me whatever you want. I'm it. I know I am. But I'm working regardless. Many a times through pain and stupid crap of a headache others leave for me. I agreed to help mom out with fixing her FLOORS. I've finished the FLOORS in one of her appartment and somehow... this was a free invitation to do 50 other things that my mother didnt even ask me to do. Its been the other siblings who say... you know, we should do this. And of couse by "we" they mean, I should do that. I'm getting quite pissy and tired of what they have in mind for me. I've done what I've said I would, the FLOORS(!!!!!!!) I'm not a cabinet fixer/painter/patio decorator/handyman for every frickin little job you think you see... and its funny... cause I'm the lazy one in my family. I've got no motivation to do jack shit. You have to tell me 100 times before it gets through my head to get started on something, and even then, I need to be babysat to continue to work on what I need to. Thats how they see me... and makes me pretty sick to my stomach. makes me want to hurt some of my family and tell them off in a big way. Whats worse is they give me the list of things to do... but when I'm busy with something else and they call me "Hey, wondering if your free to do work on the appartment" guess what happens... N-O-T-H-I-N-G-! Apparently I'm lazy... yet they cant do crap on their own when they have the time... I want to hurt someone... very... very... VERY badly.
*breaths*
I finished the floors with Steve like I said I would. Tile. no fun... lemme tell ya. Felt like it would never end. So after I'm done with those floors... here is Bryan telling me about this other place he is fixing up for his work... and its more tile. Fun... But, it is money. Today was my first day over there... and I worked friggin hard. I got 2 nasty no fun blisters, hurt neck, sore back, cramping legs... annnnnnd I agreed to help him tomorrow... Why? Cause I'm a glutton for pain... and money I desperately need. Spent all of the money I made with mom on fixing my car. 900 bucks... all down the tube... and I'm broke again. This wasn't how it was suposed to be really... but yeah... gotta put some money away for various reasons... most of which are of the Brittany related categories. I'm ok with that... So I'm working through pain and crappy feelings for a girl I cant see or talk to... what of it? -_-;
It should be all good. I've got ideas for 2 other part time jobs ontop of what work mom and Bryan give me. Part time work that is SUPER flexable. I'm pretty much a shoe in at one of those jobs. Being a working camera man for a local business/studio. Actually looks like it could be alot of fun. The other idea for part timer would also (I immagine) be quite available as a substitute teacher around the county.
Downside of everything... I'm not sure if I can do all that work and keep my healthcare benifits. I'm being paid without reports from mom and Bryan. Those 2 I've got nicely and dont have to tell anyone... the other 2 will be a different story. I'm really not even sure what to make of it. I've been healthy for about 9 months now, and feeling great. But I'm also going to the hospital next week for stent changes. Just annoying how everything works that way. bleh. SO! I'm gonna have a talk with some people on the inside very very soon... being my mom. hah. Nice to have people you can talk to for this sorta thing who can actually help!
So anyways... other than that, the only thing thats worth much of mentioning is that, yes, Brittany and I are still together. sorta... if you can call it that... ><><)
She is my soulmate and best friend and I love her.
IF it was ment to be... September is going to be the best month of my life. If not... at least I'll know that I can move on and try to be confusing and conflicting with someone else... haha.
So time will tell.
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