... just... why?

I've not been well lately. Been violently ill. Have had to work around the house even though I feel like crap. I've had nothing to do or no one to talk to... and I'm really getting tired of everything.

My plans for today have all gone to crap.
I work my ass of instead inside a thankless house.
And to top everything off... My ex wants to talk to me so she texts me. I'm being lied to again... and I can't take any of it... and I swear to god if she tries to say one more thing to me and tell me what I can see as an obvious lie... I'm done with being any bit nice to her. She didn't deserve me being nice to her then... She sure as hell has none of my respect now... and she only wants to make things worse.
She wanted to just say hi. I said to her that I was told she thought I was dieing in the hospital.

"ya, you and Sean just shouldn't talk cause it makes me mad and want to hurt you both."
I say. "ok. Dont be a bitch to me. Not in the mood cause he wanted to be buddy buddy with me. I told him to fuck off. You put yourself in that position. You date him after what he pulled. You want to be friends with me. You fucked him when you said you werent interested in anyone sexually and now your pregnant. You've put yourself in these situations so do not get mad and bitchy with me cause of what you've done. I didnt ask for any of it. You shouldn't be mad at anyone cause if you dont like sean, like you say... then he should be long gone from you and your home. You shouldn't care period."
Amber- "I know. I'm just saying I dont like people talking badly about me behind my back... I wanna at least be his friend for god sakes. We're having a kid together"
I asked why is he so excited he gets to have a kid and bragging to everyone about that?
"He is. I'm not going to deny him our child or my friendship. I'm a bigger person than that"
And after said she has to go. outta the blue.

AM I THE ONLY ONE NOT SEEING HOW MESSED UP ANY OF THAT IS!?!?
Am I crazy?
Honestly... I want to know someone's opinion on this.... cause I almost feel like I've missed something and she actually might be making some valid point... oi... I'm getting a headache from all of this... and ready to pull my hair outta my skull...

And the night isn't going to get any better I'm sure. Feiht is no where to be found when I need to talk to her... I really hope things can get fixed quickly on her side... cause I'm a stupid greedalox who is always asking for someones company... Its always hers first choice cause I care about spending time with her the most... And I can't do anything to get my greedalox ways to spend time with her...

ugh... I'm gonna go... making myself upset.