Lonely Days...

So yeah... I woke up today officially at... 3:30... give or take a few minutes... And not terribly surprised when there was no attempt to talk to me from Feiht... Nor has there been... in the slightest... and... I'm really at a loss. I wanna throw my hands up in the air and just give up.
Maybe I'm expecting too much and need to back of a little and let the girl breath?

But other than being slightly disappointed... I got an email from my brother saying he might have a job for me in a town 20-25 min drive away. And rather than just think... no, no way can I work, why would I want to work?. I'm going to try for it. Gonna at least give them a resume and see what they think. If they want me, great, I'll work as long as I can before I'm thrown back in the hospital and they say I'm unreliable... If they don't, at least I won't have my family hounding me for trying to be more "adult" and "responsible" when they have no fucking clue what its like to be in my position. Love my family... but good lord they piss me off sometimes.

In the FFXI world, I found a nifty little group to do Nyzul runs with. 8:30 every thursday night. Still gonna work to get floors 1-5 done... but... yeah... was sorta laughable for the attempts done tonight. I think there were a few new people in there is all.... I probably did some same things. Still probably do. And in my boredom of waiting for certain people. Got lvl 69 today. Go pld!

Still pretty below average day. Except for this Double Fudge Brownie ice cream which is very much above average. I'd say its even exceptional! ^^ If this doesnt help me get fat... idk what will.