But lets just say... I'll talk to her if she needs me, but I'm not looking for a friend in her, only giving her a very real person to release on. I told her that basicly I dont need to sugar coat anything for her, and she should never expect me to either. Thats how she pushed me away. I will not fall into any traps she might try to lay down for me to stumble in. And really, she hasn't tried to contact me but 2 short times since that night.
So to backtrack slightly.
April 4th, Saturday:
It was my brothers birthday. My brother-in-law's, Jonathan, the day before. To celebrate, us Blacks know how to have fun... WE BUILD FENCES!!! o.o
We ate food too... but yeah. My brother purchased a new home in the last year... year and a half, needed a fence. His yard is no small yard and of course to match, he wanted the no small fence either. In the span of about 7 hours we worked on getting HALF of the fence finished. And there were 11 people working on it. Some of us were busy baby sitting which was usually 2 or 3 people. I was one of those people being sorta... unable to do as much physical labor as the others... I did do a few things outside... but it involved holding, doing math to figure out spacing of boards and posts and the sort and no physical stuff period. I feel... sorta like a bum sometimes with the family. Maybe not so much a bum... but... fragile? Still not the greatest feelings in the world. But its ok. I got to spend time with my 2 necies and had lots of fun. We did lots of kids things. They slid down slides while I watched. We played kitchen for a little bit. They chased me around the house and as soon as I knew I lost them... I would duck in a closet or corner and hide from them till they found me. Suprizingly enough... they found me pretty quick. But the best part of the day was being able to teach them what I do best.
ART!
They sat down at a table and wanted to play with stensil paterns. I got out some paints, some paper, the stensils, and they went at it. One of them was wanting a color we didn't have exactly, so I tought them how they could make orange... and their faces lit up so bright! They looked at the newly mixed yellows and reds and looked at me with this look of "I did it!!! I made something amazing!!!" with many giggles to follow. It was terribly cute and amazing to see the world through kids eyes. Everything is wonderful and magical and exciting.
Eventally we did have to clean up and get ready for lunch and blowing out of birthday candles on birthday cakes.
Lots of people had their own things to do, and I had my own as well.
Durring this little family get together, I had a phone call of an old highschool friend asking me if I wanted to go watch a DC United game with her. Free tickets! Apparently she won some sort of contest for working saturdays and her work gave her tickets. And she thought of me to invite first? I was flattered, wanted to go see a soccer game, and I couldn't resist!
Was fun catching up with her. She vented to me about her stresses in being a single parent, I stressed about being harassed by stupid people... and we went on the DC metro and watched our game. She wanted to have the best for us, so she got both me and her a shirt and a baseball cap with the team on it. Now... when she asked the gentleman behind the counter to get a medium size... I think... he thought it was ment for her. I didnt really check the tag cause I didnt really care much about things. I just wanted to enjoy a game and have fun ^^ We found our seats which were very very nice. Best ones I've sat in inside RFK stadium. but... not many people were there, so was still "nose bleeds". there were a few people on our level, but no one was above us. Was still very nice seats anyways. We sat down, tried on our new hats, and slipped our shirts over the ones we wore. Mine... was maybe just a teeeeeeeny bit small... I apparently got a medium for "youths". And if this says anything about me... I still fit in it. Very TIGHT fit mind you, but the fact that it looked like more of a muscle shirt than it did a kids t-shirt... it makes me kinda sad... ; ; I wanna be bigger!! lol We watched a good game... ran around and got lost in a cirlce durring the half, found out they didnt have any more hotdogs to sell!!! (forshame!!) And to top it off... the only goal scored was as we were trying to find the way back to our seats... and I had missed it completely. Was still a great time. Specially the ride home. Metro full of crazy drunkards who kept shouting all the chants and songs of the DC United team. And as soon as it started... 100's of others joined in as we all laughed about it later. As well on our ride home, we were able to talk to a... friendly hispanic fellow that said he didn't speak english... but its more likely he was too drunk to really remember any. My friend knows and uses spanish still and got this guy from hitting onto a semi scared 17 year old who didnt know exactly how to get him away as he then turned his attention to her. Was pretty akward seeing I remember little to no spanish, speak even less spanish and got a recap on the way home... was... funny in a way watching this guy struggle to remember previous conversation we had before, trying to remember his own native tounge and hold his own saying... "no tengo bebes... no... no bebes" (I didnt have any drinks. no drinks.) with a straight face and super bloodshot eyes. To say the least... was an eventful evening.
Not much to mention some of the other days... not quite yet. Lots of confusion and misunderstanding with Feiht, which I believe I actually have sorted out... 90% of the way. But back to with what I started off with saying... I think... I want to keep my guard down... but I'm very paranoid and quick to throw the guard back up over my heart... I'm slightly worried about all that business and how things are going to pan out with teh gf... but I'm sure things will work out for the best. I've just gotta wait for her to finish up this new MASSIVE update they are doing so I can talk to her. I miss her a lot being away for... what seems to be close to a week now... (part of the paranoia... ><)
Now I just gotta figure out what I need to do in game and get moving in doing some newer evens... or hopefully finish the old ones... I really need my CoP and ZMs done... they've been nagging at me for too long.
MY POSTS ARE WAY TOO LONG WITH ALL BORING STUFF!!!
CAPS LOCK IS FUN TO USE!!!
haha... I had to... its too fun ^^
Till next time!
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